mix: retrace (locked in these memories)

[isthisthelasttime]

Notes: So, after a month of adding and removing songs to a playlist on iTunes called "[M+E] 1", I finally finished my first ever fanmix. I spent a lot of time deliberating who this mix would focus on and, after reading between the lines of almost 20 songs (no, the mix's not that long; I cut it down substantially), I concluded that clearly I'd had Eduardo in mind all along. At first, the songs don't scream his name at you but after you read the specific lyrics I've picked out for each song, you'll see where I was going with this!

Hopefully.

Anyway, on to the story behind the music. It's fairly simple: Eduardo reminisces. It starts with facebook's move to Palo Alto and continues with the slow (or rapid, however you want to look at it) disintegration of his and Mark's relationship. Somewhere between "Answer Me" and "Constant Knot" is the climax of the film (A.K.A. the break-up scene) and "No One to Share the Blame" is the beginning of the lawsuit. "I Believe You, Liar" ends the suit but also marks Eduardo coming to terms with Mark's actions. The final two songs bring Eduardo to the point where he wants Mark back in his life, in spite of all the horrible things that have happened. He understands Mark's reasons, dislikes them, but wants Mark anyway. I added the bonus track at the last minute because I wanted the mix to have some kind of hopeful note. Otherwise, the ending's ambiguous enough that you might think Eduardo just spends the rest of his days wondering about what could have been. And, no, I couldn't have chosen a more creatively titled song. ♥

(side note: "No One to Share the Blame" is probably best taken as a Mark interlude, though I think the first verse is very Eduardo)



With that, I introduce you to . . .



{ all deliberate speed | mae }

Sound off, we're going to LA
You wanted to be the one who makes it happen so
Sound off, we're going to LA
If it's going to be, then we've got to give
But it's got to be enough for me



{ weekends | the perishers }

You don't know me, but I'm sitting next to you
Every morning, on the bus or on the tube



{ can't take that away | the friday night boys }

I remember conversations before I gave up on me
And if it's any consolation, I remember everything
And you can't take that, no, you can't take that away



{ answer me | tiny animals }

You won't even know what hit you at all
Answer me, I promise I'll be brave
Would you miss me if I went away?



{ constant knot | city and colour }

How do I end up this way,
A constant knot in my gut,
Tied with uncertainty and lust?
A classic case, I suppose,
A haunted man who can't outrun his ghosts.



{ no one to share the blame | josh gracin }

I can count 100 reasons why
But 99 would still be shy
Of a good excuse for why you're gone
The truth will burn you when you know you're wrong



{ no way to be | teddy thompson }

I'm on your back
I've got no patience
Defensive stance
It's just frustration



{ someone to save you | onerepublic }

Let's start from the very start
'cause I can see by your eyes, you're wasted
Your energy comes and goes
You taking your time, and, no,
Nothing can change what's happened



{ i believe you, liar | washington }

All the things you've said
And things you've done
I remember, in memoriam
You said that you did
But you did not



{ swans | unkle bob }

I'm lost in my dreams
And I want you to know
That I can't let you go



{ retrace | anberlin }

Oh, how I find every subtle thing screams your name
It reminds me of places and times we shared
Couldn't live locked in these memories
Now I'm chained to my thoughts again



bonus track


{ the end | jason reeves }

In the end, I see it's all up to me
To figure out where I should be
I'm gonna find a way from here




download .zip here
individual song uploads available upon request

Comments

[yellowwolf5.livejournal.com]

Great mix! very Eduardo indeed. downloading! :)

[lemniciate.livejournal.com]

Ah, this looks great. My internet won't allow me to DL right now, but I can't wait to have a listen later. Thank you! ♥

[sheep-mambo.livejournal.com]

Hory sheet, that graphic. Will definitely download.

josh and gracin?

[fledmusic.livejournal.com]

Ahhhhh this looks AWESOME. I can't wait to listen and think about your comments on the song choices!

[thisissirius.livejournal.com]

this is amazing! very eduardo-esque. definitely downloading. (and omg your notes. this whole thing is so perfect!)

[pada-something.livejournal.com]

OHMYGOD THIS IS SO BEAUTIFUL. BRB DYING~~

[anysomething.livejournal.com]

lovely lovely. thank you for sharing!

[anysomething.livejournal.com]

OH NO TRAGEDY STRIKES.
my computer won't let me unzip the zip. :( might just be that i'm on a mac?
great choices for a mix, anyway. it looks perfect!

[learnthemusic.livejournal.com]

Noooo! Might there be a program mishap? What do you use to unzip?

[anysomething.livejournal.com]

I don't know, I just double-clicked the download and it said it was un-zipable. but I successfully downloaded a zip like two days ago so I'm trying again and I'll let you know how it goes.

[learnthemusic.livejournal.com]

I really, really hope it works!

[anysomething.livejournal.com]

aha! it finally worked. fantastic! thank you oodles- so excited to listen to these!

[aurora]

This is a great mix -- I especially enjoyed City and Colour and The Friday Night Boys.

[plastics-bank.livejournal.com]

I love this. downloading, thank you ♥